Sleepless Nights.

It's 12:22am, and I cannot sleep. I tried to go to bed shortly after 10pm, listening to one of my hypnobabies tracks, trying to calm myself into a deep state of relaxation. Towards the end of my track I woke up, and somehow lost all trace of tiredness that I had. Tossing and turning, getting up, laying down again, I fought trying to sleep. My migraine has not helped. I decided to tune in to the soothing tracks of Shawn McDonald, calming my heart and reminding me of my passion for singing, for God, for desires, he sang, I listened. Still no ounce of rest.

I have had this headache most of today, and around 4pm it began to turn into a full migraine. During pregnancy of course you can only take Tylenol, so I drank a bit of caffeine instead. I couldn't even finish it. After I could take no more, I resorted to my happy pills...the ones that hadn't worked the last time I tried to take them. I ended up having to take two, and rest, and it still did not touch the pain. It's the only thing they gave me that was safe for migraines during pregnancy. And it fails me.

So here I am, now 12:27am, I have drank a small glass of milk, and I am typing on a computer with the brightness settings as low as I can get them and still be able to see, the rest of the apartment in total darkness...When will I be tired? I am tired, but I cannot rest. They say to try to get as much rest as you can now, because when baby comes, there won't be much of it. I haven't had much rest for the past several months anyway, so I suppose I could say I am a bit used to it. Of course it will be different.

The next two months are going to fly by, it seems. October 24th...the due date for my little boy. I can't wait for that time to roll around so I can see his face, look at him, hold him, play with him, and learn to be the best mother I can be. It will be a struggle, and a joy, and an experience like none other. I only hope I do a good job at it.

I think I will play around, do some editing on this site, and waste some time until I feel I might be able to actually fall asleep. 8am is going to roll around sooner than I would like, and I have a feeling that just as soon as I am finally sleeping peacefully, the alarm will go off, and I will have to sit through another day. That is life I suppose...You never know what you're gonna get...